I don't know why i keep coming to this site. I guess it just feels like I'm looking back at a journal that i wrote a long time ago.

I'm engaged to a wonderful girl and we're expecting a kid in about 6 months. This relationship kind of just happened and now I'm getting married to this girl. I guess it's a little overwhelming at the moment but when has my life not been. If anyone wants the rights to use my story as a manga or novel feel free I'm sure it would be an interesting read. It's kind of impossible for me to write something too happy on this site and then when I do it's usually not sincere.

Life is a sequence of random events in which we all just follow along hoping that there are more happy ones than sad ones. So far things have gone well but life isn't over yet it's only begun and I'm already tired. I feel like an old man when I look at the past and then I feel like a kid when i look to the future when I'm in the present I'm both at once it's conflicting. Parts of me want to grow up and be mature but then parts of me keep telling me I'm just a kid and there is only so much I can do. I guess it's better to have this chaos it kind of balances me out.

Hopefully this will end good *sigh*

wow when they say history repeats itself they're not kiddin around.  nobody reads this but might as well write and see what happens.  I had a g/f for a year and a eight months but i screwed up because i danced with a friend that liked me at the time now neither of them wants to be with me and i'm stuck being manic and paranoid.  I can't do anything right everything i touch gets hurt or scared I'm back to the old thoughts of suicide but that's old news not like i have the balls to go through with it. too many people would be hurt and i don't want to do that to them they don't deserve to suffer because of my stupidity.

Hello everyone,  todays my birthday i didnt tell anyone though so i only got two hugs today i almost got a pinch in the butt but from a guy so im just going to wipe that thought of my mind....hmmm...well other than that camille was in the kitchen today i always enjoy her company i also found out about a guy that likes her and the fuckin stupid shit he does when he sees her the funny thing is that its all the old stuff i used to do in junior high ive gotten much help since than thankfully.  She doesnt like relationships so thats a dead end road for him poor guy.  well for other news i know my grandson(actually just a freshmen thats in my drama class who is acting as my grandson so we like acting outside of class as well) aint gay.

Saying:  when life gives ya lemons make lemonade or lemon pie or pink lemonade or lemon lime soda or lemon chicken and the list goes on.